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Will Smith breaks silence on Oscars slap in new video and says it 'hurts' him that he let fans down: 'Disappointing people is my central trauma'

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Will Smith apologizes to Chris Rock in a YouTube video four months after slapping Rock onstage at the Oscars. Will Smith/YouTube
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Will Smith posted a nearly six-minute video on his YouTube channel Friday and apologized to Chris Rock for slapping him on the Oscars stage in March. He also answered some of the burning questions people have had for him since.

"I've reached out to Chris, and the message that came back is he's not ready to talk and, when he is, he will reach out," Smith said.

He then looked into the camera and said, "I apologize to you," adding: "I'm here whenever you're ready to talk."

Smith also said, "There is no part of me that thinks that was the right way to behave in that moment."

A representative for Rock didn't immediately respond to Insider's request for comment.

Smith, who won his first Oscar that night, for his performance in "King Richard," went on to say that his wife, Jada Pinkett Smith, did not tell him to go do something after Rock made a joke about her bald head. Pinkett Smith has alopecia, which has led to her hair loss.

Will Smith hits Chris Rock
Smith, right, hits Rock on March 27 at the Dolby Theatre in Los Angeles.  Chris Pizzello/AP

"I made a choice on my own, from my own experiences, from my history with Chris," he said. "Jada had nothing to do with it. I'm sorry, babe. I want to say sorry to my kids and my family for the heat that I brought on all of us."

Smith also apologized to his fellow Oscar nominees from that night, especially Questlove, who accepted the Oscar for best documentary feature for his movie "Summer of Soul" right after the slap.

"It really breaks my heart to have stolen and tarnished your moment," Smith said. "I can still see Questlove's eyes. You know, it happened on Questlove's award. And, you know, it's, like, 'I'm sorry' really isn't sufficient."

Smith also addressed those who felt he let them down.

"Disappointing people is my central trauma. I hate when I let people down," he said.

"It hurts me psychologically and emotionally to know I didn't live up to people's image and impression of me," he added. "I'm trying to be remorseful without being ashamed of myself.

"I made a mistake, and I'm trying not to think of myself as a piece of shit."

He concluded his video by saying: "I know it was confusing. I know it was shocking. But I promise you, I am deeply devoted and committed to putting light and love and joy into the world.

"And, you know, if you hang on, I promise we'll be able to be friends again."

Since the slap, Rock has spoken about it occasionally at his stand-up shows.

At a show Sunday at PNC Bank Arts Center in Holmdel, New Jersey, he gave his most revealing comments yet.

"Anyone who says words hurt has never been punched in the face," the comedian said during his set, an eyewitness told Us Weekly.

"I'm not a victim, motherfucker," Rock said later in his set, according to Us.

"Yeah, that shit hurt, motherfucker," he added. "But I shook that shit off and went to work the next day. I don't go to the hospital for a papercut."

Apart from Friday's video, Smith apologized to Rock in a March 28 statement on Instagram.

Smith has since been barred from attending the Oscars for 10 years.

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Jason Guerrasio
Jason Guerrasio
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